The Beginning is Near : a short sea-story of departure and arrival



Beginnings were about to begin again. He felt he was about to be swallowed whole, by the sea.  While wrestling the wheel, he attempted to imagine his way out of this maelstrom, for a return to Port Coseville.  Silently he mulled — why not just go with the flow of fresh experience?

“Why resist?” he screamed into the wind, as tho’ it might readily reply.  He squinted thru the foggy spray, hoping to glimpse the horizon, while resisting the temptation to gaze astern at his past, knowing this was no time for watching re-runs or revisiting regrets.  Yet, ahead there be dragons seemed a lame excuse to bypass the stress of an unknowable future. ¿Was he tempting fate?

Am I ok for the next five minutes?  Well, let’s see.  He knew the past had never been what nostalgia would claim for it, and watching himself in replay could be downright depressing. (Regrets for the past could change nothing, but might haunt and perhaps alter the present.)

If extricating himself — which direction would he even go?  He calculated.  These were uncharted waters for him, and imagining 360º x 360º brought him more than a twinge of vertigo. At the same time he was losing track of his precious log books, which were now awash. He had read them so often while becalmed that he thought he had memorized them – but they were de-materializing, swamped in the intruding splash and enveloping fog of the sea’s churning, all of which had his mind racing.  (He struggled to retain those memories, but it seemed futile, as he was even forgetting who he was.) The fog thickened.

Without compelling reason, he pondered the simplicity and risk of riding out the present turmoil, rather than clinging to the past, hoping against hope to learn the way home by closely observing his path, come what may.  He steadied his resolve, reminding himself that if he lived here in this moment then he would already be home.

Without taking further thought, he swung the tiller sharply, plunging up, up, directly into the next swell, abandoning his effort to evade the storm by sailing inside the trough of waves, parallel to them. ¿Perhaps instead of being swallowed, he was about to be burped up? He stifled an urge to vomit.

Cresting the wave had rocked him. Then another shiver.  Voices?  He suspected he was not alone in the din of this soundscape.  ¿Were there others, dangerously close, enshrouded with him? 

. . . yes, muffled voices were being spoken in a strange tongue . . .


Suddenly a wave of natal fluid crested and launched him forth into a ship’s surgeon’s hands, followed by a gentle swat on the backside. He gasped. The heaving had ceased.  His abrupt arrival in a protected harbor was beyond dazzling.

The life of a man is a circle from childhood to childhood.  ~Black Elk, on the circles of time and life.  

He would eventually come to hear stories of his birthing in a home port on a tropical isle, and of his “commissioning” from dry dock, as a light cruiser, but in reality, a navy brat.  These accounts affirmed the wisdom of his decision to cross the boundary of terror, into an utterly new experience.  ¿But . . . was the decision truly his? 

Some few years later he would ponder this question again, as he wildly spun the wheel of a toy boat tethered to revolving cross-beams in a donut-shaped tub at a country fair.  He spun that wheel to no effect, but noticed an inescapable fact. The de-frocked illusion-of-control was instructive, and memorable. He resolved to continue to search for an underlying principle explaining experience, without losing his joy at being entertained and instructed by it.

He would eventually be shown a report printed by his “crazy-clever” father – a two-word description told to him many years later by his Mum.  Pop was the Commander’s yeoman-stenographer, Petty Officer 2ndc, Henri Jaffe. Pop had immediately published the news of the launch of this (me!) their spanking new “vessel,” the USS Sven Jaffe, to announce the arrival of their first child, to family, friends and neighbors, complete with nautical details: ___length, girth amidship, tonnage, blanket speed____.  But I digress . . .

Yenni, mi Mum, prior to 1946, from our family album.  Photographer unknown.  (fair use)

Mum, of course, was aboard, in the ship’s dispensary.  She was a native of the island, then occupied militarily to help enforce a peace, claimed to be new, from their tiny atoll after the “second great war.”  (I would come to learn that peace was not merely the absence of war, and that war was not great – as friends and mates came home, bagged or broken.)

As sailors often do, Pop had mingled with the locals.  But Mum had chosen him, over many eager suitors.  We all three would come to feel chosen, and mightily blessed.  They had married before my arrival, and were deeply attentive of me, their newest chapter. 

They call me Sven – a good Viking name – a freeman who serves another – for someone expected to sail on to storied adventures in community by crewing as a fellow sailor.  (Hey, coconuts which drop near the sea are often claimed by the sea.)  In a gale, palm trees flex.  Nuts float off.  Rigid pines snap.

Like all newborns, I had no notion of ethnicity or race.  Pop was Jewish. Mum was Christian. I arrived assuming there was a single reality, and we were all adherents of the One, like cells in a universal body.  And they, my parents, were characters in my story. But less-than-apparently, I was a character in each of theirs. One bunch, many grapes.  (Other siblings would follow.)

As time advanced, I would find I often didn’t enjoy their exercise of authority, their verbal style of drawing word-pictures in that strange and contrived tongue of theirs, English. Pop would often be too quick to ask-and-answer, without affording me time to think, which could be infuriating.  Socrates would not have approved!  (Maybe I met Soc’ in a previous life when Meno and I played stickball together in the old neighborhood.) Mum and Pop seemed to think I, who had sailed many seas, was naive.  How absurd!

Yet I was not inclined to become a quick thinker, preferring the safety of depth, to that of speed.  To be clear, I avoided confusing depth with certainty, favoring time and space for reflection, informed by a healthy skepticism.  I welcomed being proven wrong. It was edifying.

My newest assignment was to learn how to direct these two latest additions of an ever-unfolding cast of characters.  They hovered, but were not easily managed.  My communication skills were blunt, to burble the least.  Both of them were very entertaining, and often made me laugh with their silly antics.  I could tell that both cared deeply, cheering me on with new lessons daily. We enjoyed our advancing dialog.


Mother’s milk is so much tastier than rainwater, or even coconut water.  But chewing instead of sucking should be warned against by an advisory note writ large in the owner’s manual, packed into each newborn’s shipping container, to be studied at leisure while enroute, before delivery.  To wit, my overly-eager monkey bites got me weaned early – swapped out for a breast pump and a rubber-tipped bottle.  While each meal still fulfilled its purpose, O, how I missed those sugar cones! (MEMO: Ignoring assigned homework has its opportunity costs.)

A first priority for me was to learn to use my voice with skill, rather than volume. It was strenuous work.  But it was becoming evident that amplification and comprehension are not to be conflated. (He who speaks loudest does not automatically win.)  I needed to imitate their words and use them cleverly and carefully, to exchange them for incoming entertainment and education.  Words were fun.  I collected them eagerly.

Frozen moments from paradise.

Shortly after me and Mum had recovered from the crashing surf of birf, additional clouds appeared on the horizon.  I was oblivious. This harbor felt blissfully safe. Yet change happens.

A year of snapshots in paradise from the young couple’s album would later reveal to me storied portions of their romance, plus my brief six months with them prior to departure.  My experience on the island would be charmed, but short. We all boarded a C-47 “Gooney Bird” for Hawaii and San Francisco, and then flew on to Pop’s hometown in Upstate New York, our new home port, where the waters were fresh, but far from the salt sea.

Stories from Lapland.  Learning to read.

As the years passed, and I acquired an English tongue, I became intrigued with story.  Visitors would find me eager to present them with a book to read with me, from lapland.  I had detected that those black marks in books were key to telling the story the same every time, and I wanted to learn how to make those little marks bark. While I enjoyed Dr. Seuss, my favorite story was The Emperor’s New Clothes.  I loved how it recognized that tiny people could point out observable facts to persuade adults of their follies. 

While I could almost recite that story from memory, that wasn’t good enough.  I wanted to learn the secret of converting ink into sound and meaning.  Mum, however, said school teachers didn’t like it when arriving students could already read.  This made no sense to me, but I was unable to articulate my objections.  So I had to wait for first grade to learn my very first letter-sound-meaning combo, which was :  LOOK (with eyeballs inside the O’s).  But it was torture to watch classmates struggle with exceptions, variants, and absurd explanations of why a single letter could have multiple sounds, or no sound at all.  I distinctly remember telling Mum that this language was dumb, and somebody should fix it.

Reading for meaning.

While reading for pleasure was a delight, reading for meaning required attention.  One day our teacher handed out a test on a mimeographed sheet with little drawings. The instructions told us Using your crayons, color the apple RED.  Color the pumpkin ORANGE.  Color the grapes BLUE, et cetera.  Well, silly me. I knew what it said, but I forgot to change crayons from orange to blue, and there I was with an orange bunch of grapes!  Panicked, I recalled that the teacher always wrote our score on the backside of the sheet.  So I flipped the sheet over and colored the entire backside orange to prevent her from marking me down.  But she put my score at the top of the front side, and never even asked me why I had colored the backside orange.  Adults were so incurious!

I continued collecting words, and reading for pleasure, even discovering that I didn’t have to finish a story if I didn’t like it.  Eventually I found Pop’s copy of Roget’s Thesaurus.  Word heaven. 

By the time I got to high school I was not enjoying English teachers very much.  Too often, they would torture a good story into submission by asking weird questions.  In biology class we dissected a frog to study its parts, learning in the process that living creatures were not machines, since the frog dies from dissection.  Stories often suffered a similar death by surgery.  Even history seemed dead when presented mostly as dates and events rather than as a contest of ideas or positions, afloat atop good questions.  I became interested in life outside of school, as school seemed intent on pickling life in preparation for eventual assembly-line work at an auto plant, or bucking hot metal at a steel mill. 

The only time I ever got an A+ was on a term paper about life on Walden Pond, by Thoreau, in which I referred to him throughout as Henry.  (Maybe the teacher found that endearing.)  Here was a guy who could write and think about stuff I found worth pondering – nature, and neighbors.  I read several more of his books on my own, as I wanted to learn how nature and community worked together, or could or should work.  Henry seemed focused on big questions, and wasn’t going to let anybody bully him.  He said “It’s never too late to give up your prejudices.”  But why wait?  Thoreau was perplexed at why the governor of a free state would arrest (kidnap!) runaway slaves to remand them to slave-owners in a slave state.  Good question, Henry!  (¿If Massachusetts had outlawed slavery, how could anybody be arrested for “being a slave?”)

The politics of power are perplexing.  I guess rich guys stick together to maintain ownership of the game-of-life, which apparently is not so much a game of skill, but of luck.  But how to get my head around that concept!  The English word hap, from which we get happy and happen, is an old word for luck.  Am I lucky to be born a human rather than born a crow?  Dunno.  Well, crows can’t read, so maybe I am lucky.  But maybe crows don’t need to read.  They love to crow, to fly, to be. To be happy. That seems plenty fortunate, another word for luck.

Without being force-fed, I had started reading the Bible on my own at age seven, as I liked the wisdom I found in the Psalms, which invited me to think.  (Mum was a good example, as she quietly read her Bible each morning, living those gleanings before us, daily.)

Further along in the text, I eventually got to where St. Paul tells us to give thanks, no matter what comes.  Feeling unlucky? Thank-you, Lord.  Feeling giddy about good fortune? Thanks again.  My take?  I guess that luck, good or bad, is intended to be instructive, as in: “be careful what you wish for, because if God wants to punish you, he’ll let you have what you wanted” (MEMO: thou shalt not covet).


But rather than charging God with being mean or indifferent, I prefer to think that my want-er earns its own punishment – “bad luck” is then often blamed.  (Was Job, and family, unlucky? Hmm.)   But God is innocent, and kind – A Good Teacher.   And contrary to what you’ve heard at church, humankind is innocent, too.  God knows this, but we don’t. At least, not yet.  Yes, original innocence is the lesson of that story about the garden, the tempter (the whisperer), the woman, and the apple.  Hey, there is no apple in that story.  Read it. No apple!  I promise.  Perhaps the point of that story is, that in order to detect a counterfeit, it is necessary to be deeply familiar with the original.

That ersatz “apple” is actually a red flag, saying “beware the fruit of the tree of the knowledge of good AND evil [emphasis added by me; see v.16,17].  And I don’t care what your pastor or priest told you about “original sin” — s/he also learned about the flipside of that charge at divinity school or seminary, called monism or nonduality, and was pledged never to reveal it, at risk of causing a church fight, which would then cost them their jobs.  Yes, heresy has gotten many people fired, or even burned at the stake. But the fact is the garden story is an allegory, a parable, not a literal history!  It’s there to invite us to think.  (Ask any rabbi; or enjoy Stephen Greenblatt’s book about Adam and Eve.) 

So, what is heresy?  Hey, Jesus was a heretic in the eyes of many of his nation’s congregation, challenging the interpretation of the teachings and practices of a majority of the holy men alive among his tribal fellow-worshipers.  But look where it got him! — So count the cost before following him as a fellow heretic.  Dare to think for yourself!  ¿Got courage?

 “Literalism” is presently the “third rail” of religion.  It should recede as we reawaken.  Literalism – “fundamentalism” – a refusal to do our own thinking, is the great red dragon which will “huff and puff and blow your house down” – if you let it.  So, have the spiritual curiosity to read with hunger, with gusto.  (I have esteemed the words of His mouth more than my necessary food.) And then pray that your appetite be relocated from your belly or your flesh, to your heart.  Our invitation is to read between the lines of scripture, rather than getting ensnared by the words. We can invite the holy spirit to be our translator, our Teacher.  All of us long for a mentor.  ¿Got appetite?

But we often skip our tutorials and reading assignments. Instead, we go to a building to hear a weekly monologue. Afterwards, we often distract ourselves with social interaction rather than serious study and listening, when we could be in dialog with the Divine, at home or abroad. 

Well, if you do go to said building, you might ask yourself “¿what am I bringing to the party?”  Maybe I’m just going there to look for a date or a mate, or to socialize or eat, or to hit somebody over the head with my book — when I could simply pray to be a blessing today, everywhere I go.  ¿Daily worship?

More on Luck (and Choice)

Whether luck is good or bad, I prefer asking What’s the spiritual lesson here, Lord?    (Maybe luck is mostly a matter of interpretation, or instruction?)  Clambering to a different vista alters our point of view, if we will make the effort to climb, to ponder and listen.  ¿Got spiritual curiosity?

Does a crow feel unlucky to be born black?  What an absurd question!  Yet some folks feel this way.  And others don’t!  Did I have a choice-of-color prior to arrival?  Well, not that I recall.  And while I’ve never seen a white crow, I know there are black swans, as I once saw one in the wild with a bright red beak, gracefully paddling in a lush swamp alongside a white mate.

Few people are aware that 16% of bird species interbreed. And, of course, we’ve done this as well, anciently, with Neanderthals and Denisovans.  But racial interbreeding is all in the same family, rather than between species.  While I don’t know if it’s genetically possible, I can imagine a blackbird and a cardinal crossing, to result in a redwing blackbird.  Yes, there’s beauty in diversity.

Walking in another person’s moccasins.

So, what’s it like to be a bat, or to be you?  Can I even know? That first example is a famous question in philosophy, asked by Thomas Nagel.

Black is the color which soaks up almost all the light.  We, if we think of ourselves as children of light, then our nature, our assignment, is to live in the light.  But note: a window pane doesn’t retain light; it simply, silently displays it, by not obstructing it, by honoring its own nature.  (I can’t quite remember if choice-of-color was one of the options on that Cosmic Dream Sheet I filled out before bursting onto the scene here on this planet, when it came time for a new duty station.)

Know thyself, said the ancient Greeks.  My basic assignment is to be me.  But in order to be me, I must know who I am.  This is the biggest question of life — one that, all too often, gets put on a shelf, to be considered “later, when I have more time”.  So, along with Kermit the Frog, I might complain that “it isn’t easy being green.” But a flipside of that coin might be “am I comfortable in my own skin?”  Heads, I win… tails – if preferring to complain, or refusing to think for myself – I lose. (The crowd loves to bully us; even more, it delights in pratfalls, and failure.)

Here’s my point about luck, good or bad.  Learning, like teething – can be painful – but once done, it yields the fruit of gratitude, which is understanding.  And as with teeth, we can then chew solid food. 

Mum told me the devil can’t touch a grateful person — not even by whispering – if we’re alert!  So, if you ever hear a voice inside your head hissssing that “God doesn’t give a rip about you,” reject it instantly.  It’s a god-damned lie, and God has condemned it to hell. That liar has already been defeated.  Job learned this; Jesus, too. Shake that hypnotic suggestion into the fire by awakening to who you really are.

[To be continued]

I’m looking for an agent, sharing this writing sample under statutory copyright.

¿Know anybody?



O, how I do miss Merida English Library!  (It’s “open” for curbside borrowing during pandemic.)  I’m so grateful to the staff and volunteers for all they’re doing to keep the lights on. And the book, seen above, is one of these projects.  This mini review will not be about the recipes — but rather, mostly just a shout-out for you to buy your copy :  $500 pesos.  (I bought mine at Slow Food : Saturdays @ Reforma near Colon, 9am – 1pm).  But I can’t resist offering a few observations on the book’s production, as I have a degree in graphic design, and have published two books.

First, some matters of practicality:  slick, clay-based papers are expensive and don’t do well in kitchens, due to greasy fingers, etc.  (Mostly, such papers are chosen for better reproduction of photos, of which there are none inside the book.)  Second, grey type – especially in a light font –is ok for ads, but not well suited for busy activities such as cooking :  Readability! — especially for older eyes.  Third, as there are 200 recipes, it would have been good to provide page numbers in the index next to the names of the cooking-contributors.  (I looked and looked for my recipe, a hearty soup or stew, which we always serve as a main dish;  I finally found it under Side Dishes.)  

But these are all minor details.  The main thing is to keep MEL’s doors open, which the cookbook group has surely aided.  But now its up to us to do our part by promoting and buying the book.  It’s you’re move, dear Reader.  

Below I’ve included the recipe which I contributed (p.133) — for Beans and Greens aka “Pasta Fazool” from Buffalo’s west side — with a few minor corrections (eg: in the book, for ingredients I listed six large cloves of garlic, whereas in the recipe, itself, I call for 6 teeth, which is correct. Plus a few other details, such as using only one liter of stock, for a thicker dish.)  


BEANS & GREENS, (“pasta fazool”) 
This is a hearty dish I’ve developed over the years, inspired by an old Italian joint on Buffalo’s west side, Santasiero’s, on Niagara Street;  (“fazool” is a corruption of the Italian word for beans, fagiolo.)  They always served hot yellow banana peppers on top of this heaping bowl of pasta, which I replace with some salsa. 
Ingredients :
1 jar of white beans, 400g net, as cooked cannelinis, locally called alubias blancas cocoidas.
1 large tub of baby spinach (or other mixed greens such as kale, escarole, arugala, etc)
Garlic — at least six large teeth.
Olive oil, to cover bottom of wok or kettle generously.
200g of tiny pasta elbows (here sized as #2)
1 liter of chicken stock.
As a Mexican version, add 1 small can (425g) of Campbells Caldo Tlalpeño soup (a spicy sopa w/ garbanzos and carrots) optional
Some spicy salsa (Costeña taquera, habanero, etc) or your favorite fried chili peppers, to taste
Large white onion, or leek, or other such allium.
Some dry sherry or brandy, if available.

In sauce pan,  add 1-liter of chicken stock; add one whole garlic tooth, smashed, peeled. Maybe add some water. Bring to boil, and simmer.  
Add pasta when liquid is hot, stirring a bit to prevent sticking. Remove the garlic tooth when pasta is almost done, al dente.
In wok or large kettle, add enough olive oil to cover bottom. 
To the hot oil, add quartered onion, coarsely chopped, to simmer slowly till onions are sorta transparent. 
Next, add to the wok, five tooths of garlic, smashed, peeled, chopped coarsely – but don’t burn the garlic! 
Add lots of greens to the wok – covering, to wilt. (They will cook down dramatically.) Add some water after adding the greens, to help wilting with steam.
When well wilted, add the pasta elbows and hot stock to the wok. 
Add beans and some of the thick bean juice to the wok, mashing some of them.
Add the can of sopa tlalpeño to wok to simmer a bit.
Add salsa to wok, to taste, but don’t over do it.
Add some apple vinegar or blonde sherry vinegar, to taste.
Add optional splash of brandy or dry sherry.
Provide additional oil & vinegars and salsa, at table.  
(Makes about six generous servings.)



“If the Democratic Party wants to stand with anarchists, agitators, rioters, looters and flag burners, that is up to them. But I as your president will not be part of it. The Republican Party will remain the voice of the patriotic heroes who keep America safe.”

— Donald Trump, Aug. 28, 2020

Photo by Liz O’Neil   (fair use)


Dear fellow citizens, across the aisle:

Up until a few days ago there were about 150 elected Republicans who were on record saying they would object to accepting electors supporting the victory of Joe Biden.  (Congress can object on evidence-based cause – none of which has been found – but Congress does not have the authority to choose which electors various states send to the electoral college, but rather, only to count them and tally the count, naming the victor.) Congress is legislative, not judicial; they are not entitled to go on a fishing expedition to look for fraud, which has already failed, in courts.

Yesterday a mob sacked our capitol.  This mob was invited, incited and sent by a mobster.  Personally, I want to practice neighborliness with all fellow citizens.  (correction:  Yet, CNN reports that a total of 121 elected Republicans objected to the electors presented for Arizona; and 138 for Pennsylvania, after the capitol was sacked! )  If you, dear citizen, voted for this lying mobster in the General Election, I invite you to ponder the quote at the top which now debunks any claim of law and order by said mobster:
If these “patriotic heroes” mentioned by the mobster were acting on credible evidence, I would praise them, too!  But we must protect our community from the lame claim that the election was “stolen”.  If you believe so, please consider the many lawsuits, all of which were rejected by our courts for lack of credible evidence.  (Many of these suits were rejected by courts in Republican states!)  No court anywhere saw evidence of significant voter fraud which could have effected the outcome of the election.  But we did see a brazen attempt by the mob’s Don to demand that the top election official in Georgia (a Republican) “find” about 12,000 votes to overturn a certified election which had been counted three times.  
“Truth by assertion” — merely saying something is so, doesn’t make it so.  Saying “I won” over and over is nonsense if the votes don’t add up, not even if the words “in a landslide” are added to the claim.  Where is the evidence?  Even this Mobster’s own Attorney General has admitted there is no such evidence, when resigning.  Do you really want a mobster running America?  (The Mobster’s consigliere, Rudy Giuliani, has called for “trial by combat”!)
     Neighbor, if you still believe this election was stolen from Mr Trump, you are a Banana Republican in need of an awakening to reality.   If so, please get some help.  Our community needs you back again, in your right mind.


Naturalist Jim Conrad, photo by MeridaGOround, in Yucatan, 2012

I’ve written about this modern-day Thoreau several times here at my searchable blog.  For a guy with such big feet, he’s got the smallest carbon footprint of anybody I’ve ever met. His austere lifestyle is to walk lightly on our planet, honoring Nature’s beauty, without trampling.  

Naturalist Jim spent a few days at our home in Merida several months ago, after decamping from a rustic ranch in Tepaká, Yucatán, on his way to new digs at a remote eco-lodge in Texas, Frio Cielo Ranch, where he is resident naturalist.  During  winter solstice he released his latest project,  NATURE-STUDY MEDITATION: Mother Nature as Therapist in Anxious Times.

This ebook is downloadable for free.  And he’s now offering ZOOM conversations with the naturalist, individually and to groups, where he gladly entertains nature questions, clickable at a block on his home page, .  

Jim tells me that his recent foray into FaceBook is over, as they have foreclosed his access to his fb account, apparently wanting money from him since traffic at his noncommercial site has become busy enough that they seem to want a cut of his action, which is basically zero, as he subsists modestly on donations. (He speculates that perhaps this increased traffic is due to home-schooling during pandemic.)  

His latest ebook is somewhat autobiographical, as he interacts with posts from his past, while sharing his approach to meditating on nature, and our place in it.  It’s instructive without being preachy. He teaches how taxonomy works to help us better understand nature; and he explores mental realms that stimulate curiosity, and bring peace and relaxation.  


¿ Who knew ?  (they sure didn’t tell us in school!)  —  In 1659, Massachusetts made it illegal to celebrate Christmas—a ban that lasted for the next 22 years!  Some religionistas just don’t know how to party; maybe their puritan long-underwear was too itchy?  (The word celebrate comes from Latin, celebrare; to honor.)   ¶  Below are a sampling of some of our Christmas cards celebrating love, family, community, gratitude – so much joy over the years.

Christmas card ~1978?

Christmas card ~1979?

Christmas card ~1988?

Christmas card ~1989?

Christmas card, 1994

Christmas card, 1997

Christmas card, 1999

Christmas card, 2001

Christmas card, 2002

Christmas card, 2004. Later, I went digital. More recent greetings can  be seen by btowsing December entries.




JESÚS and the JOURNALIST . . .

photo by Alberto Morales (fair use)

Courage is an amazing quality, often extending to include self-sacrifice, while facing formidable risk.  We can find it in the lives of nurses and doctors during this pandemic; firemen and police responding to deadly events; even an occasional politician risking loss of a job during re-election, while refusing all campaign contributions — the late and rare Senator, William Proxmire, comes to mind.  The “selfish gene” concept has trouble with altruism, but it is evident that some humans value the species above their own lives, or so it seems.  

Well, perhaps every act is selfish, in some sense.  We make our choices based on what we value.  If I value stability or liberty or community more than life itself, I might sacrifice my life for my values, “selfishly”.

I now ask you to forgive me for the trick I’ve played in writing the headline, above.  This truly is a Mexican story.  But the unaccented Jesus I will mention (briefly) is Jesus of Nazareth.  (I didn’t want readers to decamp upon suspecting a religious theme, which this is not.)  The Mexican angle is about the killing of a Mexican journalist, Regina Martínez.  But both laid down their lives for their friends.

I have no idea if she was Christian, but it seems to me that she shared some of that love for community exhibited by Jesus of Nazareth, by risking her life for what she valued. While I have no ability nor inclination to evaluate evidence of her killing, the facts tell us of her relentless pursuit of truth about corrupt governance, at considerable risk to herself. That particular governor was found guilty of corruption (but not murder) and is now in prison.  The practice of investigative journalism in Mexico, outside of a war zone, is one of the riskiest professions in the world.  Let us be thankful for self-sacrificing heroes!  Without a free press, community gets run by the worst of the tough guys.  

In Plato’s Republic, Socrates asks a local tough guy this question: What is justice?  “Mr T” answers:  justice is whatever a tough guys says it is.  Through further questioning Socrates manages to dismantle T’s response so thoroughly that it yields one of the most famous blushes in all of literature.  

We should all blush for failing to question duplicitous authoritarians, hiding our cowardice by looking away. In a letter to Thomas Mercer, Edmund Burke wrote this: “The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing.”

Yellow Christ, by Paul Gauguin


Arrazola wood carvings, Oaxaca

While we all await the return of safe touring, I invite you to encounter the enthusiasm for Mexico of a recently-minted PhD in archaeology, Dra.Marina Aguirre.  I’ve enjoyed traveling with Marina on several of her well-researched tours, especially her signature tour starting from the Olmec stone heads at the La Venta sculpture park in Villahermosa,


Olmec stone head, ~25 tons.

thru the Lacandon jungle, where we stayed at an eco lodge and visited the ruins at Yaxchilán by canoe on the Usamacinta river, and then onward by bus to ruins at Bonampak and Palenque, before spending several days in San Cristóbal da las Casas, Chiapas, exploring the folk arts and textiles of that Mayan region.

Marina’s ebooks are an excellent way to sharpen your appetite for the robust culture here.  She knows her stuff, having done field work to locate the characters, talents and stories that make Mexico so compelling.  There are three ebooks in her collection, covering archaeology ruins; mural and plastic arts; and folk and textile arts.  They are pointing you to future adventures. And a visit to her blog shows some of her past destinations, which are possible repeats.  (The caliber of fellow travelers was astonishing.) She often visits artists’ workshops where folk art is being made. Details of these sites are shared in her books.

Ruins at Mitla, Oaxaca. photo by Teobert Maler, 1875


Masks of tecuanes, at the mask museum


Ceramic dolls which model Fridha Kahlo outfits


Guachimontone, Jalisco



I’ve recently finished reading a page-turner of a tome, a biography of two adversaries, titled FATAL DISCORD: Erasmus, Luther, and the Fight for the Western Mind, by Michael Massing. This author is a masterful researcher and storyteller.  Anyone with an interest in the history of ideas would find this book lively. The book has range and depth, across empires, popes, kings, wars, and rivalries.  At its center is a fight over how to read the Bible in it’s many fragments, collected in Latin and Greek (and more). 

Decades ago at a nondenominational divinity school, when I encountered the puzzle of reading the Bible in early languages, I dropped out.  Today the online tools are amazing.  Here’s an example from my own study:

Rocky, Rocco in Latin or Italian, is a tough-guy name.  But petros, in Greek, from which we get the name Peter, not so much.  Think Pebble.  (Jesus was yanking Simon’s tail, by giving him a diminutive nickname.)  Yet Peter is thought of as a brawny fisherman, the foremost disciple of Jesus – the leader of the pack – but the church which Jesus reportedly built upon Pete’s name is feminine, petra, bedrock. (Why are churches run mostly by men?) Enjoy the word-play below. Link note: get past registering by clicking the tiny line “not this time” in lower left, then scroll to v.18 and click the blue appearances of Peter and rock in Greek and English.

¿What fun, no?  I’ve been reading the Bible since I was seven, by free choice.  I own and use many translations and paraphrased renderings.  One became a personal favorite a few decades ago, The Message, done by an exciting translator, Eugene Peterson, a language scholar and Presbyterian minister who helped his congregants develop their spiritual lives thru translating the text with them.  His publisher promoted their release as Read the Bible again for the first time.  It was that fresh. 

Language is a living thing.  It goes stale when bottled or canned, as can be seen in the Latin mass, the Vulgate, the King James Version (which I love and use almost daily, reading between its lines by unpacking the Hebrew and Greek). 

One of the exciting things about Massing’s book is that it reports the histories of Bible publishing, often  as a contest of wills between many powerful players, which became a deadly contest with beheadings, burnings at the stake, murders, and social upheaval – all over the meaning of words.  Hot stuff!

And it continues yet today.  We have shootings in churches, assassinations of politicians, gynecologists and ministers, and fierce fights over how to read our own laws.  The idea that a document can be “frozen” and understood using a mindset that was in the heads of our Founding Fathers, imperils the understanding of our Constitution.  This approach to interpreting the law of the land, contrived by Justice Scalia, is thoroughly debunked by the dean of a prominent law school, in his slim but powerful volume WE THE PEOPLE. 

How to read is so basic to being a modern human.  A favorite author who became a born-again Christian as a teen, went to two evangelical colleges, got a PhD from Princeton Theological Seminary where he started to question his understanding of the Bible, and today no longer identifies as Christian (but continues to study the Bible, and write books on biblical topics), is one of the most popular professors on his campus in the Bible belt.  His many accessible and compelling books on translating the Bible can be seen at Amazon.  Misquoting Jesus is a good place to start. 

Conclusion: we are all translators of our encounter with reality!  Is your “version” making sense for you today?

NOTE: Here’s a link to a translating project I did,  gathering together the ethical teachings of Jesus, including the “sermon on the mount”.  And here’s a more recent link to a book about Thomas Jefferson’s pursuit of the ethical teachings of Jesus.


Friend Manolo has been printing, each week since March, numbered editions of what he is calling The Toilet Paper Story – LINO CUTS, and yes, he is printing on toilet paper, of course.  When he first heard that people were hoarding toilet paper at the start of the pandemic, he started his editions.  And now he has sent me news that Austria is printing postage stamps on toilet paper!  (Artists are so often ahead of the curve.)  Stamp collectors may want to collect versions of both sorts.  The artist can be reached by email, here: printandbake AT gmail DOT com. The prints below, some of my favorites, are floated on card stock and sleeved in plastic, (which I removed to take photos).


¿ Are you still the person you were when you got your first credit card, signed your first loan, bought your first car. or registered to vote, still writing exactly like you did back then?  That person no longer exists; and that signature surely has changed. Indeed, it was never consistent!   EXAMPLEA few weeks ago I found my social security card, which was signed when I was 16.  It looks nothing like my current signature.  Yet these lawyers are contending they have the vision to detect an early self from a current self, and cancel your ballot?  Gimme a break!  

I won’t argue that there has never been voter fraud.  Such would be a silly assertion.  But when lawyers and politicians insist that they are qualified to be paid big money to evaluate signatures of voters, it’s time to throw down the gloves.  This is a junk argument that they, on both sides of the aisle, have floated to pay their cronies big money.  This is sophistry at its worst.  The public should insist that it receive summary rejection.

The public needs to say NO to these magicians who are perpetrating a scam on the us.  This “authority” is utterly naked.  There is nothing scientific about signature studies. It is alchemy, inventing gold from mud.  And the gameboys are laughing all the way to the bank.  No matter who wins, the public is fleeced by fraudsters floating specious arguments, for cash.  It is time for the public to rebel against such nonsense.  And the people, who are governed by the states, under election law, have the authority to do so.  But they would need to rise up in protest, striking, which is a right under the First Amendment. We should not allow any ballots to be rejected for signature complaints, without additional proof of fraud.  Many red states have already purged voters without evidence, as reported in this book, by journalist Greg Palast. He cites a wholesale pattern of injustice, for example: there being two people with the same name, that it is someone voting twice.  What!  And with this absurd logic half million voters have already been removed!  Could you be one?